What are you thankful for?

So with everything that has been going on in my life the past day I thought I would sit down a make a list of all the things I am thankful for.

First and foremost I am beyond thankful for my son without him I don’t know where I would be in life so with that I love you Caden.

Second I am thankful for my job though only part-time I work with the most amazing people. 

And third I’m thankful to have a guardian angel watching over me, even in chaos I can still ground myself and have a sense of calm. (OR at least try.)

Though my list may be small, I do have something to be thankful for and in that I am grateful. 

So tell me what are some things you are thankful for? 

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Run girl!

When the only other option you have left is to run, then run and continue running until you can’t run anymore. I spent most of my night researching and crying I don’t know what’s going to come in the next few weeks, days, or months, but what I do know for sure is things have got to change but for now I’m just going to run to clear my head. 

Long time no blog

Life has been absolutely crazy, I honestly haven’t been blogging because this page has been giving me so many problems every time I would try to write a post and to tell you the truth is honestly don’t even know if this one will post, but I’m giving it a shot. That’s all I can do right? So to start I have been going through a whole array of emotions a lot of them being sadness and depression. A lot of things have been going on and I feel alone a lot of the time. I feel as though I have lost a lot of myself, I am not the same person I was a year ago. A year ago I was happy and didn’t have to force myself to smile, I know I have always been one to say never fake how you feel but even that motto has changed for me, I find myself saying “fake it till you make it.” But the truth is what if I never make it and that’s what’s killing me, I have been faking it for so long now I have lost what truly makes me well me and I’m not sure if I can ever get that back. 

Well I have bored you all enough for today,
Until next time

Stephanie 😩😩😩

Never let someone bring you down!

Good afternoon everyone, and happy Tuesday.  So for a start yesterday was less than ideal I started out learning how to crochet baby beanies when all of a sudden my dad started yelling at me. “You are just like your mother, you get these crazy ideas that you are going to be able to sell your crap when if you can do it so can anyone else.” His words really hurt I never expected my own father would do this to me. Crushing me the way he did, but what I have learned is not to give up that just because he’s not happy with his life doesn’t mean I have to be unhappy with mine.

Needless to say I didn’t give up either I cried through it but I didn’t give up.

So my words to you are never give up on what you really want to do just because one or even a few don’t believe in you. My favorite quote is “failure is better than regret, because if you fail it means that you at least tried.

Well I hope you all have an amazing, wonderful, tranquil, and happy Wednesday.

Love and hugs from my home to your’s.

Stephanie 🍁 🍂 🍁 🍂

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Happy birthday to me?

Good morning everyone and happy Saturday. So today is my birthday but I am just in a down mood I don’t know why and I wish it would go away. We are supposed to be happy on our birthdays, honoring those who gave us life and honoring that we have made it as far as we have but I just don’t feel happy. I constantly feel like I am failing at this life and how can I honor those that gave me this life when I haven’t even made the most of it thus far?

Sorry for the depressed ramblings, I just thought if I got it out I could move on from it and put it in the past.

I hope you all have an amazing, relaxing, and peaceful Saturday.

Love and hugs from my home to your’s.

Stephanie 🍁 🍂 🍁 🍂 🍁 🍂

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Literally one thing after another, and it’s time for a change.

Good afternoon everyone,  I have been so sick here lately and it has been going around. Today is the first full  day of fall (my favorite season) but it is not going very well at. I’m sitting at home and all I can keep thinking is I need to get my own place for my son and myself. I’m so tired of my dad’s yelling at both myself and my son and I just can’t take it anymore something needs to change I don’t have half the problems with my son when he isn’t here or when we go out by ourselves.  I just need a change, something needs to change.

Well I hope you all are having an amazing first day of autumn.

Happy Wednesday everyone.

Love and hugs from my home to your’s.

Stephanie 🍁🍂🍃🍁🍂🍃

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The good the bad and the better.

Good evening everyone and happy Saturday. I was going to start this out by saying how I am ok, but in all reality after everything I have been through this weekend I think I am just starting to be ok. I have had my entire life as I know it turned upside down in the matter of a day. I became a single mom for the second time meaning old habits with my now ex die hard. I just think what hurts me the most is that he didn’t even say anything he just stopped communicating with me all together, but enough about that on the other hand this has given me the inspiration and motivation I needed to start hitting the gym even more often. I have decided to do an hour at the gym and an hour of weight lifting and my goal is to shoot for 7 days a week. 

Well I hope you all have an amazing and enjoyable weekend.

Also wanted to say the one thing I have been telling myself over and over these past few days is “he may have taken my heart with him, but he will never take the smile from my face or the happiness from my soul.”

Love and hugs from my home to your’s.

Stephanie 🌴 🌊 🌴 🌞 🌴 🌺 🌴

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From bad to extremely worse.

After having a full blown anxiety attack because of something that someone who said they loved me has caused I am at that point of knowing that I need to throw in the towel on this, pick myself up very lady like, brush myself off and start in a new direction.

So from here on I am starting from rock bottom but I can say I am now on my own 2 feet and I know everything will be just fine. Everything happens for a reason and some things are just not meant to be.

One day I hope to find true love and not abusive love, but for now I am no longer looking true love will come to me when it is my time.

Happy Saturday everyone.

Love and hugs from my home to your’s.
Stephanie :'(😭😣

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Rough 😭

So I am having a rough night tonight and could really use your thoughts and prayers. I won’t say much now, but I am trying to stay positive and keep telling myself over and over When life knocks you down you just gotta get up, brush yourself off and get stronger than you were before so it doesn’t knock you down again.

Thank you in advance.

I hope you all have a wonderful night.

Love and hugs from my home to your’s.
Stephanie

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